By Your Side

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Lyric Of The Day:

Automatic (automatic echo x3)
Automatic (echo x3)
You’re automatic and your hearts like an engine
I die with every beat
You’re automatic and your voice is electric
but do I still believe?
It’s automatic every word in your letter
The lie connects the beat
It’s automatic when you say things get better
but they never…

Automatic - Tokio Hotel

To sum up today in one word it would be DEPRESSING. I'm so depressed now i think my heart's gonna stop beating at any time. Ok. Maybe that's a bit exaggerated but whatever.

Why can't people just say what they feel? If you hate somebody just say so. I don't know bout other people but i'd appreciate it if people who hated me just said so instead of playing mind games.

If it was me i'd just say so. Don't think about the consequences and don't look back. Just go. Life won't last forever so i won't waste my life away by living a lie.

I suppose i'm rather a hypocrite though. Even though i say that i don't think i have the guts to confront you, whom i think. I mean KNOW hates me.

Where did i go wrong in believing that friendship CAN last forever?

I didn't believe in that last time but now i do think that some things were meant to last forever. I'm so confused now i can't study. The world is spinning round and round like a roller coaster ride - BLG

I wish i had the guts to just ask. You can deny it but i suppose in our hearts we know the truth.. Jun Xi, you're too positive sometimes.

And please please please someone just give me a sign. I know its too late to pray for a miracle and i'm sincerely sorry for whatever wrong i've done. Is it too late to get an explanation now? Like you said i would tell my kawan baek but she's the one who told me.

I don't categorise my friends. Friends are friends. There's nothing different at all. I love my life, my family, my friends and i'm not being conceited. I'm just grateful for this life i have been given. Life's too short to spend on worries.. So i just want this all to pass like the wind.

There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

Today is AUTOMATIC coz perhaps there's no real love in you towards me but i probably will still think of you as my friend... And i feel so impeccably lesbian now..

It’s so automatic calling comes from the crossroad
They come and go like you
It’s automatic watching faces I don’t know
Erase the face from you

I wanna forget that this whole thing has happened. Just close my eyes and listen to my heart stop beating...

Whats done is done. I just wish i could understand what happened. How am i to move on when the past won't let me go?

This isn't even the ending of some depressing state of my life. Its just the starting.

Each step you make
each breath you take
your heart,
your soul,
remote controlled
This life is so sick
You’re automatic to me

Maybe this is the way life is. I'll just wish for the best and wish that somehow i can turn back time to erase the wrongs i've done. If it hadn't turned out this way, would our friendship still be ending or whatever is happening now? I have no idea what to think.

This is so confusing but i think after a sleepless night and a restless day i've come to accept the fact that i can't stop you or anyone else from hating me. I never can and all i can ask of the people who hate me (does this count as perasan? ) to just tell me.

I don't wanna live a lie. That wouldn't even count as living

It’s automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You’re automatic


Bill K "Whatever happens... Believe in you, believe in life, believe in tomorrow, believe in everything you do, any time. " "I will wait for love to fly to me and teach me how to fly " - Bill Kaulitz Rette Mich MUSIC = LIFE and I couldn't live life any other way Leb' die Sekunde, Hier und jetzte, Halt sie fest... - Tokio Hotel , Leb' die Sekunde SCHREI! Menschen suchen Menschen Adeline Tang Alicia Tan Celinelx Bo Kang Eddy Do Eu Win Jeremy Wong Jun Xi Lyn Dee Ann Lee Ashley Soong Azureen Deanna Esther Jillian Jia En Misha Natalie Choong Niki Nina Su Jane Yuen Min Der letzte Tag July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 June 2010 Name: By Your Side Designer: KraUjaGysLea Editor: celinelx Music Playlist at MixPod.com	Sunday, October 18, 2009 Lyric Of The Day: Automatic (automatic echo x3) Automatic (echo x3) You’re automatic and your hearts like an engine I die with every beat You’re automatic and your voice is electric but do I still believe? It’s automatic every word in your letter The lie connects the beat It’s automatic when you say things get better but they never… Automatic - Tokio Hotel To sum up today in one word it would be DEPRESSING. I'm so depressed now i think my heart's gonna stop beating at any time. Ok. Maybe that's a bit exaggerated but whatever. Why can't people just say what they feel? If you hate somebody just say so. I don't know bout other people but i'd appreciate it if people who hated me just said so instead of playing mind games. If it was me i'd just say so. Don't think about the consequences and don't look back. Just go. Life won't last forever so i won't waste my life away by living a lie. I suppose i'm rather a hypocrite though. Even though i say that i don't think i have the guts to confront you, whom i think. I mean KNOW hates me. Where did i go wrong in believing that friendship CAN last forever? I didn't believe in that last time but now i do think that some things were meant to last forever. I'm so confused now i can't study. The world is spinning round and round like a roller coaster ride - BLG I wish i had the guts to just ask. You can deny it but i suppose in our hearts we know the truth.. Jun Xi, you're too positive sometimes. And please please please someone just give me a sign. I know its too late to pray for a miracle and i'm sincerely sorry for whatever wrong i've done. Is it too late to get an explanation now? Like you said i would tell my kawan baek but she's the one who told me. I don't categorise my friends. Friends are friends. There's nothing different at all. I love my life, my family, my friends and i'm not being conceited. I'm just grateful for this life i have been given. Life's too short to spend on worries.. So i just want this all to pass like the wind. There’s no real love in you There’s no real love in you There’s no real love in you Why do I keep loving you Today is AUTOMATIC coz perhaps there's no real love in you towards me but i probably will still think of you as my friend... And i feel so impeccably lesbian now.. It’s so automatic calling comes from the crossroad They come and go like you It’s automatic watching faces I don’t know Erase the face from you I wanna forget that this whole thing has happened. Just close my eyes and listen to my heart stop beating... Whats done is done. I just wish i could understand what happened. How am i to move on when the past won't let me go? This isn't even the ending of some depressing state of my life. Its just the starting. Each step you make each breath you take your heart, your soul, remote controlled This life is so sick You’re automatic to me Maybe this is the way life is. I'll just wish for the best and wish that somehow i can turn back time to erase the wrongs i've done. If it hadn't turned out this way, would our friendship still be ending or whatever is happening now? I have no idea what to think. This is so confusing but i think after a sleepless night and a restless day i've come to accept the fact that i can't stop you or anyone else from hating me. I never can and all i can ask of the people who hate me (does this count as perasan? ) to just tell me. I don't wanna live a lie. That wouldn't even count as living It’s automatic Systematic So traumatic You’re automatic 5:00 PM ·